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So Friday was an awful day for me an my family, my dad passed away, he came back with my mum after burying my grandma. He was so sick and weak from chemotherapy treatment but he got the all clear from Hodgkins lymphoma, the doctors did everything they couldve done but they said he got double pneumonia and septicemia which affected both his lungs, they turned solid instead of balloons, his kidneys stopped working and yesterday me an my family buried him, literally the worst day for us. Everyone kept coming up to me an telling me how sorry they were an everything but they couldn't understand what I was going thru. I just wanted to scream at them to leave me the fuck alone, I was so numb, still am, it feels like a dream, that its not even real, I feel that any minute he will walk thru the door an it'll be jus a bad dream, but when people are coming to the house and we're going to his grave today its making it real. None of these people who came to his funeral and who're coming to the house later on can understand what we are going thru, it hurts so much, ive never seen my mum cry so, so much and my 2 brothers just broke apart, they had to be comforted. I cried so much, I even cried on my own last night but now I cant even shed a single tear, is that wrong? Cause I feel that if I dont cry the people will think I dont care, I just hope me an my family can get thru this but when I remember something even just a little thing about my dad, it brings it all back, how hes not here anymore and will never be coming back, there was so much stuff I wanted to say to him and now I wont be able to tell him that I love him so much, that I was proud to be his kid, I was lucky to have him as my dad and that im sorry so, so sorry. When he came home he was so disoriented he couldn't speak more than a few words. But im glad we got to see him one last time alive (i hope we will meet soon someday)

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DarkMind22 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the :+fav:! :hug:
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R0cKf4n Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome :-)

(sorry for the late, late reply)
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casper033 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2015  Student General Artist
Thank for the faves! =D
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R0cKf4n Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My pleasure :-)
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SGTROCK117 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thx for all the favs :)
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R0cKf4n Featured By Owner Edited Sep 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My pleasure, man:-)
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Yellow-adoptables Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi! ^__^ Thank you so much for watching me! Hug 
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R0cKf4n Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi, You're Welcome, it's my Pleasure Hug 
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ArtKnack Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2015   Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for faving my Traditional Drawing :-3D Drawing - THE BEST AVENGER
Really Appreciate it a lot my friend.
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R0cKf4n Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Always my Pleasure, mate

(so sorry for the late reply)
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